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I'll be your dixie chicken [07 May 2009|02:59am] hike up your skirt a little more.... and show your world to me.... can you hear me Major Tom?

...... [11 Mar 2009|10:41pm] [ music | Say Anything ] But I Still miss you more, I miss you more than I Ever did before you left your spores inside Of my empty core, our baby's got your eyes Now I miss you more, I miss you more tonight can you hear me Major Tom?

wow [11 Feb 2009|11:30pm] the baby is due any day now. am i ready for this? 1 got a message can you hear me Major Tom?

One more month [22 Jan 2009|09:49am] Its weird. I really do nothing all day but my life seems so busy right now. I just get so tired so easily nowadays. The baby shower is on Saturday. Such a mix of people. Family and friends, as much as I'm sorta looking forward to it I don't think I could possibly dread it more. I just have this weird thing about mixing people. And who really like to introduce your friends to your crazy ass family?? Every family has the one crazy ass person, who you know will embarrass you..even though they probably don't mean to..they will. Mine is no different. In fact , I have a few hehe. I can't get over the fact that..there will be a baby in a month. I mean technically there is already a baby and has been for 8 months. But like, it doesnt feel real yet. If that makes any sense. I don't think it really will be until he is born. And then it will feel like a bag of bricks hit me in the face. I'll be honest, Im scared. Shit, its scary. Really scary. Pregnancy/Labor/Delivery. Not scary. Its the whole, what the hell am I gonna do with him when he is out? Or, wow I love my parents but I really hope Im nothing like them. Secretly I think its one of everyones greatest fears. And to top it off. Kyle's mom is gonna be out. And I despise this woman. With great great passion. ahhhhhhh stress stress stress stress can you hear me Major Tom?

UGH [21 Jan 2009|07:04am] [ mood | aggravated ] get out get out get out get out get out. :( can you hear me Major Tom?

i woke in the snow with my face on the pavement [05 Jan 2009|11:29am] [ music | the box ] life is like a never ending roller coaster. sometimes you wish the ride would never end, and others you want it to stop before you hurl. you stripped me naked and held me tight can you hear me Major Tom?

i sleep better when i dream [28 Dec 2008|05:33pm] so much to do. so little time. busy busy busy like the bees you need a hobby :/ can you hear me Major Tom?

[27 Dec 2008|08:54pm] too many baby things. its like nothing else exists in life. as exciting as this all is. i think id like a normal day. lol can you hear me Major Tom?

Amusing [20 Dec 2008|12:07am] [ mood | cheerful ] Got my check. Brandi treated me to lunch. Napped with Kyle. a glorious friday where i didnt really accomplish anything. i love it. a cool thing. tucker loves music. if he is wiggling around too much if I put on Imogen Heap or Iron and Wine ( something similar ) someone with a soothing soft voice he settles right down. Amazing trick. I hope it still works when he is born :) can you hear me Major Tom?

Here goes nothing right? [17 Dec 2008|07:08pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Gregory and the Hawk ] Whats new? Ive been married for a little over 5 months. So as of today Im 30(+2) weeks pregnant. This whole experience has been rather interesting. Not a bad one so far. It has had its ups and downs but nothing unbearable. One thing Ive come to appreciate though more than I ever thought I would is my parents. And how hard they tried to do the best for me. Now that Im going to have a child of my own to worry about Ive started to see everything that they have done for me and everything they have tried to protect me from. Growing up you always think your parents are so strict and they never let you do anything and this this and that. ( which im sure my kids will think too ) Strange, but now I get it lol. Its all out of love, for mine at least. Its crazy to think that in 2 1/2 months Im going to have this little person thats half me and half kyle. Im excited but Im also really scared. But I imagine every new mom or dad is. There isnt exactly any training you can have lol. You kinda just have to jump in feet first. i think he is gonna be a little nightmare though. He is an extremely active baby. Always moving around. trying to break his mommy's ribs...Keeping me up at all hours of the night. But, I still wouldnt trade it for the world. Its...really amazing. Im finally becoming excited about having this baby. When I first found out I will admit I cried, for a few days. I had just gotten engaged. Just broke that news to my parents..and now I was pregnant. We had so many plans...and this was in them..just not for awhile longer til after we moved. And when I told people ( not many ) no one was really excited. I honestly just kept getting asked if I was going to have an abortion or if i was gonna keep it. Which, coming from the people it did...really hurt. A couple months ago people finally started to get a little excited which made it easier for me. The main person was my dad. He wouldnt talk to me about the baby for awhile. Would just ignore me if I brought it up. And now he calls me to see how Im doing..he knows when my doctor appointments are. That means so much to me. Unfortunately Ive lost quite a few friends because of this. Which is tough. I mean, I understand. But it just kind of sucks. I know my friends are enjoying being kids and arent ready for this step in their lives..but to be honest I was not either. And it really kinda shows who your true friends are. Im really surprised at who has stuck around. And the people who have come back into my life. On a lighter note. Im really proud of myself. I really have not gained any weight because of the pregnancy. I lost a bunch when I first found out because of that wonderful thing called morning sickness. ( which doesnt always just happen in the morning by the way ) So, Im just now about to where I was before I got pregnant. So losing this baby weight should be pretty easy. Im really stoked. I guess thats enough of an update for now. See you in 8-10 weeks Tucker. can you hear me Major Tom?

things [10 Oct 2008|07:00am] [ mood | nostalgic ] never really go the way you think they will. even though i wouldnt change things. i miss being a kid. can you hear me Major Tom?

Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain [04 Oct 2008|01:19pm] [ mood | accomplished ] I dont even remember the last time I wrote in this thing. Im 5 months pregnant with a little boy. Me and Kyle are very excited. I live in Tierrasanta with my husband, boxer, and 3 very gay cats. Getting used to being a Navy wife, its not that easy. I cant wait for him to get out so we can really start our life together. Im more in love with life than I ever have been before. BUT, I cant wait to have this little creature out of me. Looking forward to sleeping in 20 years. can you hear me Major Tom?

[13 Apr 2008|03:09am] I hear japan is nice this time of year can you hear me Major Tom?

Livejournal?? What??Does anyone still read this? lol [06 Mar 2008|12:40am] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | HelloGoodbye - Baby Its fact ] Wow. A lot has happened since ive written in this i miss it. I just read through all my old entires and it really made me miss certain people..highschool...hell all of that. Its weird how it seriously seems like just yesterday and years ago at the same time. So Ive been living in Ocean Beach for the past 9 months. Im moving to Clairemont Mesa in 15 days. With my 3 cats ( Odin, Merlin, and Titan ) and then my two dogs ( Gaea and Ripley ) with my amazing boyfriend and my best friend and her boyfriend. I couldnt be more excited about it. Things will be good. Gonna find me a new job and a new car. But in the meantime i will enjoy going to the beach with Kyle and my puppies everyday and being warm in the sunshine and just enjoying life. I am moving the Texas in 2010. It will be good. Im going to have a farm. Kyle will be my sugar daddy while I run the farm. I love my life...its stressful at times...But I really couldnt be happier. Life Laugh and Love. can you hear me Major Tom?

pssssssssssssssst [03 Feb 2008|10:26am] [ mood | accomplished ] good bye san diego good bye california :) 2 got a message can you hear me Major Tom?

[03 Dec 2007|10:21am] there is nothing better than being woken up by puppy kisses :) 1 got a message can you hear me Major Tom?

[29 Nov 2007|09:40am] we started laughing til it didnt hurt :) can you hear me Major Tom?

to be free [11 Nov 2007|09:35pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | brandi playing the simpsons on ps3 ] ah. to update my life. so i now work in del mar but wont be doing so for long because my boyfriend is going to buy a house and it will be wayyyy to far to drive. i live in OB right now, no longer living with my parents. brandi ( my best friend ) is living with me and kyle right now in our 1 bedroom apartment with our puppy and 2 kittens. needless to say its getting a little crowded. but i love having everyone here its like our own little family. uhm. thats really about it. im at a really good place in my life right now and feel like everything is sorted out for once. i love kyle so much. and am so excited that we are getting a house. we went looking for one today and there is one i fell in love with. 1600sq ft. its pretty damn good size. with a nice big backyard for ripley. but we shall see. i guess thats all. and here is the newest addition to our family. Ripley the 12wk old Boxer puppy 1 got a message can you hear me Major Tom?

[06 Oct 2007|12:04pm] dont ever be someone's slogan. because you are poetry. can you hear me Major Tom?

[04 Oct 2007|10:11am] [ mood | awake ] Calm down, I'm calling you to say I'm capsized, erring on the edge of safe Calm down, I'm calling back to say I'm home now I'm coming around, I'm coming around Nobody likes to but I really like to cry Nobody likes me Maybe if I cry can you hear me Major Tom?

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